... i ... miss ya

Hello I'm a bit teary eyed at the moment...but you probably think I'm the most arrogant @$$ ever for blocking you. I'm deeply sorry about all this...I say things that I know I shouldn't say. I make a total @$$ out of myself at times. I say things though only cause I care...sometimes too much I'm afraid. I want you to read my latest Journal because if there was ever a time I wanted to be more honest and open...this is it. Please don't take offense to things I say in there. I know I sound like a selfish bastard in there but honestly what I say in there comes from my heart. And also just want you to know...I didn't bash you one bit on here or on facebook or anywhere. I was just in tears and silent mostly. I left deviantart for a few days cause I honestly lost the will to laugh and smile cause I felt so bad that I hurt you so badly. All I can say right now is please forgive me for how much of an idiot I've been.